Where we want to be and where we should be, who determines this? Are all the obstacles that we encounter fate or chance? Who really knows, right?
This blog I am starting was it fate or chance. I had been discussing for quite a while that I needed a place to release those emotions and thoughts that I usually have a hard time discussing with even those that are dearest to me. I had made several blog accounts and journals to push me to do this but I was never able to really start typing my feelings or thoughts down. But now it's a requirement and I am being graded to have a blog. I can't run away from it now. I have to blog.
Is it possible that I want the world to listen rather than my best friends. Maybe I just need to hear what the world has to say about what I think.
Fate is usually thought of as a predetermined course of events beyond human control. Whatever happens, happens, and we can't do anything about it. I do believe that the choices we make will determine which route are fate will go. If you are known for making bad decisions then maybe it's time you make right ones and maybe your fate will change direction.
I am a great believe in fate and I know the choices I have made have gotten me where I am today. I wish I knew right at this moment why I had to go through some of these events. I know many are life lessons and experiences that I believe I must go through, but I still sometimes don't fully understand why so much pain has to be down to be taught something.
Something else that makes me second guess fate is are we destined to love the people we love, and be with the people we are with? I had two great loves in my life so far, but sometimes I think back now and I am like was I even in love or was I just so obsessed with the idea of love that I automatically assumed it was LOVE. The relationships that I had were amazing but something happened along the way, but what was it that really caused it to break, it wasn't the cheating or the lying. There was something that had to lead it to that. Did I change or did they change, or did we notice one day that we weren't really in love and just didn't know how to admit it except by slowly distancing one from another. Finally, causing them to cheat and lie. I know these are events that were destined to happen and they had to happen for a reason. But I always wonder where did it start to fall apart.
All I know is that the decisions we make are important and we must think thoroughly about how we make them. Following your heart and your gut is my guidance. I had lost that with my ex but I have slowly recovered it back recently. I have to say it is nice to feel again.
